Well life for me is soo confusing, i can't really make out what's really going on with this world. I'm with this girl that I really like, but yet I can't stop thinking of this other girl that I really used to like. It didn't help that chris and me made our own story together. But he made it soo that he's with his girlfriend britney and i'm with manon. I only found it awkward because I already have a girlfriend. But other wise i thought it was really nice. After that it got me thinking soo much of manon that i'm starting to get feelings for her. It's weird because when i'm with someone i just loose all feelings i already have with anyone else, so it's not like i dont like anyone else but that i'm just hiding it so it wont interfere with my relationship life i already have. But that damn story me and chris made, ugh its like im getting feelings for her again. I wanted to tell her what was going on but she can't text because it wastes minutes on her phone. I've been talking o her friend Andi and its really nice. I like it and i really need more minutes on my phone if im going to keep talking to her lol. I just really gotta talk to manon real bad about this because i will really loose my mind. I gotta confess everything to her. I know that you, manon, are gonna read this as soon as you can. when you do please write back to me when you can.

Manon when you read this I really hope you understand that I still like you. I still wanna be with you more then anything. Andi thanks soo much for trying to help and letting manon use your phone. Manon I wanna talk to you again, I really miss you soo much. I have non-stop been thinking about you. I know you did use to like me but im not sure if you still do. Chris ad britney keep telling me all the time you still talk about me and asking britney to say hi to me for you. Im not sure if this is true soo please get this straight for me. I want you to tell me yourself because i'd rather hear it from you. Britney tells me that your not in a relationship mood and you wont do long distance. I figured you wouldnt because I doubt i'd even do it. I dont understand how people can do it but i really wont understand how it works unless i actually experienced it myself. I'll be waiting for you no matter how long it takes. I still wanna see you no matter what, I wanna see you real bad. I can't wait till the day i see you, it will be the greatest day of my life. I really wanna be with you, be your boyfriend and being able to hold you. Im not sure if it will ever happen but hey, I can dream cant I.

Britney thank you soo much for everything you have done for me. You are the best lil sister i could have ever wanted. You have delt with all my bull shit and crap and still be able to help me. I know we have been through real bad situations with ourselves. I've made you cry and sad, same thing with me but we are still strong. Even if I may act like a child alot you still manage to love me and care about me. Thats like the most amazing thing Ive ever had with me. I hope i can be able to talk to you alot more then now because Im always assuming the worse possible things lol and I really gotta stop that i know. Imouto-chan please always be with me, dont ever leave me, no matter how dumb or stupid i act. I will pull myself through it eventually and will repay you back for whatever damage I have dnt to you emotionally. I love you soo much lil sister, dont ever forget that. From your Onii-chan always. Dont ever think other wise. Im always gonna be yours no matter what. No matter how mad i get at you, dont ever think that i dont want you to come over here or visit. I still wanna see you because i can never get mad at you enough to not wanna see you. Thanks again lil sister, I'll never forget you, and even though you deny it completely, I WILL NEVER EVER IN MY LIFE TIME "HATE" YOU. i cant wait till the day i prove you wrong about that.

David thank you too. At first we started of terrible, i wanted you dead soo bad, i wanted to kill you myself. I couldnt even stand the siht of you. But you told me it wasnt true and it was just a test because you wanted to make sure i wasnt another chris. You thought i would hurt britney soo you tested me to see if i would fall for you little trap. I ould never hurt her dude soo dont worry. shes my lil sister and now you know i wouldnt hurt her. i trying to help her through everything that goes on here with chris. you always kept me updated on whats been going on there and i appriciated that more then i can ever say in words. I would love to meet you in person one day. you told me when britney was hurt or in trouble and because of that i always ended up helping her. please dude keep talking to me, i wanna here from you again. dude thanks a ton and cant wait to see you one day.

thanks to these people i have been able to get through my life alot easier. I will always respect these people because they helped me and I've helped them. Manon pease think about what i said about you and the feelings. please tell me everything you think about and how you feel towards it.